India Ink
9x12
*She Survived - To Talk About It*
36x48 Archival Canvas
Mixed Media
The Rules
36x48 Archival Canvas
Mixed Media
Words That Matter
The overflowing toilet that flooded the basement and happened when I wasn't awake - was my fault - but it wasn't.
The clogged sink that needed major repairs - was my fault because I rinsed my paint brushes in the sink
- but it wasn't.
The fire in the dryer that I was told didn't happen and made to feel crazy for smelling - until the repair person opened the unit to the clear remnants of a fire, was my fault
- but it wasn't.
The nurses not paying enough attention to him after I gave birth, and attending to the baby and I as the patients - was my fault
-but it wasn't.
After my sweet daughters major surgery, the nurses not getting him a bed and catering to him, instead focusing on the patient - and his subsequent mental breakdown while I was caring for her at our home was my fault
-but it wasn't.
His loss of multiple jobs was my fault,
-but it wasn't.
My abuser gaslit me into believing that so much was my fault until others stepped in, examined the evidence, and reminded me
-it wasn't .
I too wondered what it was like to live a life where the consequences of ordinary unfortunate life events, weren't blame and punishment .
I was jealous of women who lived a life free from abuse.
When I escaped, I learned that what I experienced in my marriage was not normal
-it was abuse.
It takes new experiences with safe people to heal -
and heal we shall.